Thursday, October 31, 2013

celebrating Halloween with 3 Disney princesses.

My Halloween was spent with 3 Disney princesses...
Snow White, Tinker Bell, & Sleeping Beauty

Doc McStuffins (Millee) paid us a house visit :)
We didn't pass out candy or anything this year simply because she's still too tiny for all those germy kids and our road gets SUPER busy each year, but that didn't mean we weren't going to dress up and celebrate the day :) I hope you all had wonderful and safe Halloweens!

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

the mommy of a 2 week old.

This past week has been another week of learning to care for a newborn and adjusting to being a family of three. I had read SO much and asked SO many questions to prior to Milania's birth that I thought I really would have a pretty good handle on things once she came, but the truth is, nothing can really prepare you for what it will be like. We have certainly had our trials and errors already (like when I was changing her diaper and she wasn't done going potty yet, yikes!), but overall, I would say we are all three adjusting very well. I'm not as nervous caring for her as I was last week (neither is her daddy) and that seems to make everything seem much easier.

This past week...
Miss Milania had her 1 week checkup.
She weighed 7lbs, 4oz, and was 21 inches long; her head circumference and weight were both in the 34% and her height is in the 93%. She has surpassed her birth weight which means we don't have to go back to the doctor until her 2 month check up. Her doctor said "she is perfect" which of course made me one happy mama.
We also met with a lactation consultant for a couple hours.
She was so sweet and gave us a few pointers but basically said we were doing everything right, and just to keep doing what I'm doing. She still is not successfully feeding--she doesn't get herself full or empty me which makes my job a lot harder because that means I have to nurse her, bottle feed her, and pump. By the time I'm done with all three and change her diaper, we are back at it again. I keep holding out hope that she'll get the hang of it and keep getting better at it but we will see. I've set a goal of Christmas for myself so even if she doesn't get the hang of it, I'm going to keep doing what I'm doing until Christmas and then reevaluate. And if "reevaluating" means switching to formula, I am ok with that. I wasn' all..for the first week but as my husband always puts things into perspective for me..he said it best when he said "Aud, some people would amputate both legs to even have a baby they could feed formula to." Which really made a light come on. So we will see what happens.
We had newborn pictures taken!
I was sooo excited about these!!! I have been scoping out newborn pics for awhile just waiting for MY turn and finally it came. They were just taken yesterday so we only have a couple "sneak peeks" but I am more than pleased with them already! She is just a little doll in my eyes :) 
We also have ventured out of the house on several occasions.
We went to Target one day (starting her early ;) ) and church on Saturday. We also took her to Ryan's work to show her off one day. Yes, I had to feed her in the parking lot of Hy Vee and also the mall, but we made it. And during mass she was as quiet as a mouse!
Her umbilical cord fell off.
Kind of. I don't think it was actually ready to come off yet and when she had no clothes on, her little hands reached down and yanked on it. It came off but looked really nasty. It then crusted over, came off again, and crusted over again, and that's where we are at now. It's still got lots of dried blood on it and a scab so I'm just waiting for it to be off permanently!
And that's where we are at right now. Ryan went back to work this week so it's just been me and the little miss and I think we're doing ok! Enjoy the pictures! 

I tried her tutu on her the night before her pictures :)

at first she was ok with it...

Then I put the headband on haha. That didn't go over so well!

Her papa loves holding her..and look how long her arms are! All of her outfits are too big but her arms stick out!

Great Grandma Conner came to visit one afternoon

Waking up in the morning trying to decide what kind of trouble to get into

Mommy had her first drink since JANUARY!

She got a package in the mail from Joey and Heather and this was the first toy I have caught her "following" with her eyes and head

It's hard to take a decent picture of THREE people (before church Saturday)

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Milania is...1 week old.

Our sweet little baby is exactly one week old today. Yikes! Though the nights have felt long, the days/week has absolutely flown by! I think I am finally getting a taste of what other moms say when they say "time flies" in regards to their children.

I haven't updated this on what's been going on much with the little miss besides that she made her big debut into our world, so today I wanted to give a short little update on what life is like around here right now. Later this week I will post her birth story.

This last week has been filled with her delivery, a hospital room/food, visitors, and adjusting to life at home with a newborn. To say we've been busy is an understatement!

Thursday, the day we left the hospital was so surreal to me. I knew walking in Monday morning I would no longer be pregnant walking out, but instead carrying a child, but it still blew my mind that we walked in that Monday morning a family of 2 and we were leaving a family of 3. Ryan and I were no longer responsible for ourselves but now had a baby that was #1 priority. What a strange, strange feeling.

Along with just the shock of taking OUR baby home, I was absolutely terrified at the thought of not having the nurses help literally 5 feet away anymore, having to cook our own meals and being responsible for actually finding time to eat them, and just the fact of how we could do it all on our own from this point on. On the other hand, I was so excited to get home to my own bed, our puppies, and to try to settle into a routine of somesort. To say I was all over the place that day is fair.

We checked out that day around noon and headed for home. (The little miss checked out at 6lbs 9ounces, and had a bilirubin level of 11.75)

Ryan was so funny in the we were pulling out he literally was driving like my Grandma. He was hitting the brakes over every bump we saw, barely hitting the gas, and driving like he had precious cargo :) which he did! At one point, he looked back at me and said "I'm nervous driving with her in the car" which I thought was sweet, but I assured him he (and she) was fine and she had been riding in the car with him since January.

About 45 minutes later we pulled into our driveway to the cutest surprise...Cassie and Brittney had decorated our front deck with posters filled with pink and glitter welcoming Miss Milania home. I wasn't expecting anything of the sort and it instantly put a huge smile on my face. They were right, we WERE home.

We walked in the door with our sweet baby and attempted to introduce her to Dezi and Bella. They both sniffed at her for a second but honestly were more excited to see Ryan and I than anything. Plus, I'm sure at this point they still thought she wasn't really staying long term :)

From that afternoon on, we started settling into "normal" life again and that's where we are at now.


Her jaundice flushed itself within a couple days once my milk came in and we haven't heard from it since. I was so happy we didn't have to deal with that! Her color certainly was the highlight of Ryan and I's jokes for awhile though :) She had on a bright green onesie one night and looked like she had baked in the sun all day, it was so funny.

This topic deserves a whole nother post on it's own but we are struggling BIG TIME with this. To sum it up, in the hospital she was a poor eater and wouldn't latch on..both making it hard on us. In order to get her to take the colostrum the nurses had us doing "suck training" with her which is basically feeding her with our finger and a syringe...this gets her what she needs and also has her practice sucking. Long story short, the days went by and miss Milania STILL will not latch all. We are at a loss of what to do at this point. We had our home visit yesterday and the nurse tried to help us for close to an hour and then said "well this is a mystery" which is not what I wanted to hear. I have watched videos, read articles, asked friends and acquaintances their opinion...basically we are just at a standstill. We meet with her Dr. tomorrow and I will try to get some answers then, and I have also set up an appointment with a lactation consultant for the afternoon, in hopes that she can help us. For now, we continue to "try" to nurse until frustration (on her part, tears on mine usually) and then end up doing the suck training method, a straight syringe feed, or a bottle and I continue to pump in between so she can stay on a breastmilk diet. To say it is exhausting is an understatement but I don't want to give up until I've exhausted all options, so wish us luck.

Our little sweetie actually sleeps very well, though I'm sure that is mostly due to the fact that she's newborn. She usually only wakes to eat and then falls asleep shortly after, but I've been noticing each day she will stay awake a littttttle while longer after each feeding. Until yesterday we were feeding her every 2-3 hours around the clock but after our home visit and her weight check (she is now 7lbs exactly) the nurse gave us the ok to let her sleep 4-5 hours through the night without us waking her up to eat which is GREAT news to us!

In general..
Besides all that, Miss Milania has a very "laid back" personality as every nurse has put it. Our nurse at the home visit yesterday even said this and Ryan and I just looked at each other and laughed as we've heard it so many times. Rest assured, she does NOT get "laid back" anything from me ;) that is her daddy through and through! She is just so content all the time..even when she wakes up she is never fussing..its always just squirms and noises. Again, I'm not sure this will last, but for now, I'll take it.

Ryan and I

Ryan and I are doing well. We are loving having her home and getting to spend lots of time together as a family of 3. I think the best feeling in the world was Sunday evening when I was cuddling our sweetie on my chest, Ryan was next to me, and the girls were cuddled up beside us as we all watched our Sunday night shows on the couch. It was just such a sweet moment when I realized this was our life now.

My body is still adjusting to not being preggo my eggo but I actually feel VERY good in general and have showered, shaved my legs, and gotten ready every single day since I had her..thank you very much :) I still have right around 10lbs to lose to be pre-baby weight but I'm ok with that.

Friends and Family

Our friends and family have been wonderful over the last week. We've had so many visitors and sweet gestures it just makes us realize how loved we really are. A couple people have even driven LONG distances to come see us and meet Miss Milania (including Cass and her family, Sarah and Travis and the kids, and Kelli and Kari) which is just so sweet. Several people, including Cassie, Brittney, and Ashlee have also gone above and beyond by not only coming to see us but making us premade meals that just need pulled out of the freezer and cooked when we're ready for supper. I cannot say thank you enough for is such a relief just having dinner ready and not having to do anything! We have some wonderful people in our lives, don't we?!

I think that covers just about everything going on around here! I have uploaded some pictures below that sums it all up...

Cousins :) Brody walked in the door this day and said "I'm really good with babies!" just in case we weren't going to let him hold her, he was reassuring us :) Zoe said "Brody, that's baby Mila!"

Our syringe feed and suck training

Aunt Sarah

Her first bath at home...yikes!

She calmed down towards the end.

Great Grandma Pudge

Ash has got to see her a lot!

Daddy is determined to get her to take a paci but she wants nothing to do with it!

 Tummy time

And just for laughs...

Ryan has been feeding her which also means he has to burp her....

I mean...

Like I mentioned earlier, I will post her birth story later this week! Have a great week, everyone!