It's been just over a week now since our ultrasound and I think I finally came down from my natural high I was on for so long!
Last Monday Ryan, baby, and I had our 20 week anatomy ultrasound; I was 20 weeks and 1 day to be exact. We went in for our routine appointment that day as well, but also knew we'd be having the ultrasound done to check for birth defects, general health, etc. and also hopefully get to catch a glimpse of baby's sex...the ultrasound being the most exciting part of the day, obviously.
You guys, I was soooooo excited for this appointment I literally cannot explain the feeling. It was all I had been able to think about for the last 2 weeks leading up to it and the day before was absolutely horrible! I was so excited to see this little mite I couldn't focus on anything else!
Finally, the day of came and I was up and at it bright and early just waiting around for our appointment--note to self, do NOT schedule a late afternoon appointment ever again! Well, once we finally got there and I realized I had actually survived the wait time and it was just a waiting room game at this point, the nurse came out and said they were switching my appointments around and my checkup would actually be BEFORE my ultrasound--which is opposite of how it was scheduled! Just add to my anxiousness a little more!
So Ryan and I headed back to our appointment and did the usual. As the Dr. was finishing up and doing my tummy check, the ultrasound tech called and said she was ready for me and he hurried me out of there into her room--he had no idea just how excited I was! (Ryan's mom was also there with us)
We all headed back to the dark ultrasound room. I laid on the table while Ryan sat to my left, his mom behind us, and the tech to the right. Up ahead there was a flat screen tv. The tech put the jelly on my belly, the transducer on my belly, and then flipped on the tv....there was baby just as clear as could be.
The first view we could see was the little profile shot. It instantly sent goosebumps up my body. We had seen the baby at 6 weeks 1 day old, but at that point it was literally just a blob on the screen...this time though? A real baby! It was so crazy to me...so emotional and overwhelming.
She held the transducer there for a minute and explained everything we were seeing, though it was all pretty obvious. She showed us baby's face, legs, arms, torso, and even all the little fingers.
And my golly was he/she moving! Absolutely kicking up a storm. When we first looked, baby had it's feet in it's hands and was playing with it's little toes. Then just a minute later, baby was bouncing on my bladder (the tech had to tell me this because it didn't feel strong enough to actually be my bladder quite yet) just up and down as though it was a trampoline. Then, baby's ankles were crossed and he/she did a somersault in there...he/she was VERY active to say the least.
The tech pointed out a few things quickly (baby's kidneys, bladder, heart) and then asked if we wanted to check the sex really quickly. We both said YES and she moved her transducer around a bit and was looking and said "it looks like a little girl to me." I almost couldn't believe it for a second and kept looking at the screen to make sure but my eyes were quickly filled with tears and the screen then looked blurry. Ryan grabbed for my hand as she pointed out 3 little lines (her girl parts) down there and said she didn't see anything that looked like a boy. I then just began to cry...there were no holding in the tears at that point and Ryan was equally as excited; I even had to let go of his hand because he was shaking his leg/foot so bad that it was making my body shake and the making the picture move!
It was just such a happy feeling for us both, one I know I will NEVER forget. Just knowing what she was, knowing she was ok, seeing her as an actual baby on the screen now and not just something in my stomach, and being able to finally call her by name...it was overwhelming and emotional to say the least, but so so wonderful.
She then said the next few parts would be boring for us as she had to take measurements of things (her heart chambers, head, parts of her brain, etc.). Though I would argue and say I didn't think it was boring at all...knowing our little baby had all 4 heart chambers (she didn't even tell me this until I was reading everything she typed in and asked) and is growing exactly as she's supposed to be is just as good of a feeling as hearing the sex. But, I will say, it wasn't as exciting as just watching her bounce around inside me.
After she finished up her measurements (these took awhile) she said she would peek again to double check her sex...she said the same thing, that she looks like a girl and explained how sometimes the umbilical cord can actually look like girl parts when it's actually a little boy so she will never say she's 100% positive. Ryan was trying to get it out of her and she never did say she was 100% but she seemed fairly confident, so we'll take it :) She let us watch her for a few more minutes and in this time she even had her hand closed but extended one little finger like she was pointing at us...I think she knew we were talking about her :) Then we wrapped it up. I cleaned up my belly, got myself back in order, and we headed out.
I was so happy and so excited I don't even hardly remember the rest of the appointment. I did have to go get blood drawn for some more tests (which came back negative! Thank you, God) and honestly she could have poked me 400 times and it wouldn't have upset me that day! I was on cloud 9. We then met with my Dr. once more and were headed home. Ryan's mom drove herself, so she was off one way, and we were off to another...to go buy baby her
It was the most perfect day. As I described it to Ryan, it was the second favorite day of my entire life, first being our wedding day. Just hearing that she was healthy would have been enough, but to get to see what we could see, hear she was a girl, and see all her little body parts was just amazing. She just looked so perfect in there and I can't wait to meet her.
I can't wait to see what colors her eyes are, what her hair looks like, how her voice sounds; I am just so excited for all of it, every...little...bit...of it.
**I had been so excited for our ultrasound for weeks; I wanted to know the baby's sex, but I also wanted to know that he/she was ok in there and growing just like they should be--I just KNEW it was going to be a great day. Then, the night before we went in, as we got ready for bed, it all hit me and I just started crying...and cried and cried and cried. I was so overwhelmed with emotion and it all hit me at once...the day I had looked forward to for so long could ultimately take a terrible turn and go from what I expected to be one of the best days of my life to ultimately one of the worst. I was scared. As I sat on the edge of the bed just crying and telling Ryan how scared I was... maybe I didn't pray enough, or maybe I shouldn't have taken my morning sickness medicine, Ryan took me in his arms and kept reassuring me I had nothing to worry about and that if for some reason we did have something to worry about, we would face it and be fine. He then said something that is embedded in my brain...he said, "Aud, our glass is overflowing with blessings, just enjoy it and stop worrying." It was exactly what I needed to hear, at exactly the right time. God certainly gave me him (and this baby) for a reason...he is perfect and I couldn't ask for a better partner in this life, or a better person to be the calm to my crazy.
This was a couple of weeks ago.....but there is my ever-growing belly, in all it's glory! :)